Adventures & Stuff

I was afraid Afraid that things would change if i let all my guard down That he might change the way he treats me Ways that made me fall with him in the first place But, i had a lot of great memories with him He gave me happiness and all And slowly, i was tearing my walls down Because he wasn't like that at all He was patient, and he waited But you know, at some point I began to notice slight changes At first, I didn't want to let it slip But I thought, he's been letting all my stupidity slip So i let some of his too, not stupidity, just things I didnt want to let go at first And i thought too, that if you really love someone, you love all of them You must understand that they arent perfect and they will get mad too And that they wont always handle your mood swings well From the start, my mood swings werent handled well It always ends up hurting both of us So i tried not to I love him, i really do But i get hurt by the smallest thing

Man, I have this whole life ahead of me. Dreams and goals, I have it all planned out. So many places to visit, things to learn, things to achieve. Wow, amazing right? We all have this life for all of that. And I think that's already one reason to be thankful.

You are confusing as fuck, and I don't know what to do anymore. I have tried my best. Paulit ulit nalang akong nasasaktan, hindi lang naman ikaw and Im aware that I hurt you too, but why? why are you like that? I'm so tired of reaching out. Di lang naman ako diba? diba dapat pare-parehas tayong nagtatry? Im tired, of being the one who reaches out, the one na kailangan umintindi, habang nasasaktan ka, nasasaktan rin naman ako. Nagkakasakitan lang tayo. Teamwork dapat to diba? but thats okay, I'll let you be, because now Im choosing to let it go, I want to let go of the pain, of the bad memories, i want to let go of all of it, I have said that a lot of times already and Im saying it again. Im leaving it all to God, ill let Him handle this one because I've done what I can already and I will let it be enough than try to force to put it back together. Let's give it time, kahit gaano katagal, that's okay. All I want is healing, for you, and for myself. I just really h

So, I didn't expect that one of the most important person in your life, in my life, could end things through text. It's just hard to process. But, it already happened and all i can do is accept it. Although, it all ended like that, there's still something left, and there will always be something. I did everything I could, things got very heavy for me and now, I'm just choosing to leave it to time, ill just let time and God heal it. That's all i could think of. That's all. Ill always keep a part of it in my heart and in time, when all is healed. We can all look back at it and catch up, for now, i hope the best for everyone. xx

time to fucking get back on my feet. my cheeky loud self has been on break for a week. AINT NOBODY GOT TIME FOR THIS. TAKING IT SLOW BUTTTT AT LEAST ONE THING HAS CHANGED... PERSPECTIVE. I JUST NEED TO BE POSITIVE. IM NOT FORCING MYSELF TO BE OKAY BECAUSE THAT WILL ONLY MAKE ME SUFFER MORE. WHAT ILL DO IS GO BACK TO BEING POSITIVE. THAT GIRL WHO ALWAYS SAY.. WHEN U CANT FIND THE SUNSHINE, BE THE SUNSHINE. SO FUCK THIS SHIT. THIS IS NOT ME. KAHIT NASASAKTAN AKO.. BABANGON AKO.. ALTHOUGH SHIT HAPPENS.. THATS JUST LIFE. ITS BEEN A ROUGH WEEK.. I MISSED THAT GIRL.. WHO REALLY LIKES SUNSHINES AND WANTS HER HAPPINESS TO RADIATE. ILL BE THAT GIRL AGAIN. I CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY, EVENTHO IM HURTING, THINGS TAKE TIME.. HEALING TAKES TIME. BUT HABANG WALA YON.. ILL JUST CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY. KAHIT NASASAKTAN AKO, I KNOW THIS WILL END. I JUST HAVE TO BELIEVE IN MY SELF AND BE THANKFUL. SO... HEY. IM ANGEL.. I LIKE SUNSHINES. AND IM HERE AGAIN. ALTHOUGH IM GOING THROUGH A TOUGH TIME. IM STILL THANKFUL..

Blurred. A word to describe the situation right now. I dont know what is happening. Im hearing things that i never thought i would hear. Seeing things that i never thought i would see. And saying things i never thought id say. But most of all, i never thought it would be like this.  Here's what's bothering me. Bakit ako lang? Ako may kasalanan ng lahat? Ako nga lang ba? Sige ako na. I said sorry to people because i know and i accept my mistakes. I forgive people to free myself. Pero bakit parang it doesnt make a difference on them? Bakit ako lang? Ako lang yung masama? Ako nga lang ba? Nasasaktan ako. Life is unfair i know. But... bakit ganon? Una palang di ko na maintindihan pero pinalagpas ko. Ngayon kahit di ko maintindihan, tinanggap ko pa rin. Dahil alam kong wala akong magagawa. Kailangan kong tanggapin. And masaya nako. Kasi alam kong kung ito yung magpapasaya sa tao na yon. Go lang. I was happy for everyone. I talked to all of them. To fix things or you could call it